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fairy tales and other disappointments…

8 letters…

acid in my veins

a vice on my heart

mouthful of cotton

turmoil, fear, hesitation

memories searingly clear

sweet rejection

silence

another chance passed by, another doubt settles in, another night of worry

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went to the blues, brews and BBQ fest up in Beavercreek today. It snowed!! only in colorado…
but i heard some decent blues, got some bomb BBQ and was finally able to get a brew … the guy at the counter looked at my ID and said, “welcome to the club”..
I got a job! at NJH i’ll be doing a lot of things i haven’t done before. I’m very nervous, my worst nightmare is being in a patient’s room when everything goes wrong because of something i did… eh…lets not think about that… but its a relief to finally make some moolah
summer has finally started for me, baltimore finally feels like 1500 miles away.
i have become horribly addicted to gossip girl, i watched 23 episodes in 2.5 days, each is about 45 minutes long, i disgust myself. But summer is about gluttony, no?
i ate so much meat today, i feel ick, but it was worth it. I’ll run it off in the bolder boulder tomorrow anyways

went to the blues, brews and BBQ fest up in Beavercreek today. It snowed!! only in colorado…

but i heard some decent blues, got some bomb BBQ and was finally able to get a brew … the guy at the counter looked at my ID and said, “welcome to the club”..

I got a job! at NJH i’ll be doing a lot of things i haven’t done before. I’m very nervous, my worst nightmare is being in a patient’s room when everything goes wrong because of something i did… eh…lets not think about that… but its a relief to finally make some moolah

summer has finally started for me, baltimore finally feels like 1500 miles away.

i have become horribly addicted to gossip girl, i watched 23 episodes in 2.5 days, each is about 45 minutes long, i disgust myself. But summer is about gluttony, no?

i ate so much meat today, i feel ick, but it was worth it. I’ll run it off in the bolder boulder tomorrow anyways

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WHEN I RUN ON THE TREADMILL

i have 6 days till the bolder boulder…omg, not ready

(Source: howdoiputthisgently)

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grey’s anatomy makes me passive agressive…

over 28 hrs, not one peep.

I am officially rat-free! no more torturous research experiments! and to you Dr. K, I have many choice words for you and your awful, stupid lies. But, I’m a lady who keeps her blog clean. Oh, and your michigan accent sounds stupid.

I still have so many loose ends I’m trying to tie up from Baltimore. I’m home! I’m supposed to be gorging myself on movies, books and NOT THINKING ABOUT SCHOOL. yet here i am, calling, emailing and doing paperwork for Baltimore still. AGH.

I hate interviews. I think i’ve worn the same blue button up to all of them. It may be cursed. Now its all a matter of waiting….

I’m frustrated again. I don’t know how much more I can forgive. Its grinding on my heart.

I love how I can watch three episodes in a row of Grey’s with my dad, and none of them were my idea…

the awkward moment where you nearly run someone over in the parking lot cause your late to an appointment, and you shoot each other a dirty look, and then they JUST SO HAPPEN to be in the waiting room next to the only empty chair…

i forgot how incredibly quiet conifer is

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inner harbor
It wasn’t until those last two minutes in my house as dad was rushing me to do one last check that the gravity of the end came. Floods of memories of my life at 3219 Guilford came, and the immense desire to stop time suffocated me. I’ve been done with school for four days, but it just felt like a long weekend. Even as i packed my entire life into a 5X7 storage unit, i still felt the subtle anxiety of studyhomeowrkstudyclass. And then, my dad said lets go. The illusion broke and i was left standing in my completely empty room. It wasn’t fancy and it had 100 year old house problems, but it was my first place. My own. I grew up immensely in that little room. I learned, struggled, had some firsts, doubted, fought, laughed, cried, found turbulence and calm in that room. But without a glance back,i closed the door for the last time.
pops and i hit DC together. I’ve had such an awful amount of meat this weekend, veggies from here on out!
Boarded the plane, it was night so the whole harbor was that spiderweb of orange lights below us. Then the clouds moved in to block my view. Goodnight baltimore.
good to be home. weird. but good. lot of stuff is gonna go down this week which will determine the rest of my summer and even fall…crossin fingers.

inner harbor

It wasn’t until those last two minutes in my house as dad was rushing me to do one last check that the gravity of the end came. Floods of memories of my life at 3219 Guilford came, and the immense desire to stop time suffocated me. I’ve been done with school for four days, but it just felt like a long weekend. Even as i packed my entire life into a 5X7 storage unit, i still felt the subtle anxiety of studyhomeowrkstudyclass. And then, my dad said lets go. The illusion broke and i was left standing in my completely empty room. It wasn’t fancy and it had 100 year old house problems, but it was my first place. My own. I grew up immensely in that little room. I learned, struggled, had some firsts, doubted, fought, laughed, cried, found turbulence and calm in that room. But without a glance back,i closed the door for the last time.

pops and i hit DC together. I’ve had such an awful amount of meat this weekend, veggies from here on out!

Boarded the plane, it was night so the whole harbor was that spiderweb of orange lights below us. Then the clouds moved in to block my view. Goodnight baltimore.

good to be home. weird. but good. lot of stuff is gonna go down this week which will determine the rest of my summer and even fall…crossin fingers.

(Source: jaredkeithlee)

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IMDONEIMDONEIMDONE!!
my first year at hopkins has flown by so fast (although it definitely crawled at some points too) I’m in shock. I still feel the itch to study or like im forgetting a homework assignment, but thats just it…theres nothing!
Its very fitting that the sun has finally poked its head out for the first time in like a week or so. The temperature is perfect, breeze is light, and my pops is coming to Baldamore to help me move my stuff into storage. Time to fold up my east coast life and unpack my Colorado summer list.
i learned so much these past nine months. More than the last two years of college combined. Academically, i was challenged and required to seriously think critically. I learned alot about people, from different backgrounds, as professionals, as patients, in their weakest and strongest moments; the human mind is beautifully complex. I learned a lot about me as well. My weaknesses became more transparent and I grew because of it. But i feel finally like my future is in focus. I was so unsure for the last 4 years, but now i know what i want. This education has allowed me to learn in the classroom and then cross the street to apply it right before my eyes. And i love it.
always, do what you love.
I have no idea what the next 3, 6 or 12 months will be like, but i know it will be quite the journey..

now its time to, breathe!

IMDONEIMDONEIMDONE!!

my first year at hopkins has flown by so fast (although it definitely crawled at some points too) I’m in shock. I still feel the itch to study or like im forgetting a homework assignment, but thats just it…theres nothing!

Its very fitting that the sun has finally poked its head out for the first time in like a week or so. The temperature is perfect, breeze is light, and my pops is coming to Baldamore to help me move my stuff into storage. Time to fold up my east coast life and unpack my Colorado summer list.

i learned so much these past nine months. More than the last two years of college combined. Academically, i was challenged and required to seriously think critically. I learned alot about people, from different backgrounds, as professionals, as patients, in their weakest and strongest moments; the human mind is beautifully complex. I learned a lot about me as well. My weaknesses became more transparent and I grew because of it. But i feel finally like my future is in focus. I was so unsure for the last 4 years, but now i know what i want. This education has allowed me to learn in the classroom and then cross the street to apply it right before my eyes. And i love it.

always, do what you love.

I have no idea what the next 3, 6 or 12 months will be like, but i know it will be quite the journey..

now its time to, breathe!

(Source: louisthompson)

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soo close… done with pharm, don’t even care what i got, just done

just found out what yolo means..hm

must find out what “darey” and “faders” mean

i really dont care much for geriatrics

a large number of people pulled on my little pony tail today

i wanna go home already

my dear daddy is coming in two and a half days!

i bought 2 L of coconut oil, not sure why

he said i looked ‘friggin gorgeous’ … miss him

he wants to be friends, did he forget?

i ate a chunky monkey ben n jerrys, now im a chunky monkey

i’ve been oddly addicted to jay-z, kanye and kid cudi this last week, never before have i been so G

kahlua in milk is actually ok

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The architecture of sleep, HPA axis, paclitaxel and chronic neuropathic pain

stupid rats, why do you torture me!?

I have not decided which is worse, reading research articles or writing them. The above title is the title for my project. It hurts my little brain a lot.

for the love of biology…

p.s. i got a hurr-cut, its much shorter, curlier and my ends have that fantastic feeling of new-ness. now to explain to the rents the $74 charge on my credit card…

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10 days, 6 days, 4 days, 3 exams, 1 excited kid

Sometimes sushi on the bus ride home can facilitate the most intriguing conversations.

Pretty sure I have a new job for the fall?

I’ve unfortunately gained a few end-of-semester pounds

this will be the second friday in a row I’m being lazy at home, its glorious

pharmacology can burn in heck

playing with the idea of moving to Denver for the summer

or

going to peru for a week?

aaand study……

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Watching my first Disimpaction

if you don’t know what this means, google…but don’t, go to images!

(Source: whatshouldwecallmedschool)